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Tuesday, 24 November 2015

Day 1533 - See in me a side of you

From what I have seen of the footage on Youtube, Morrissey's concert held on Saturday night in São Paulo was quite incredible, and also happened to include a few signs/references to the BRS.

SET: Suedehead / Alma Matters / You Have Killed Me / Speedway / Ganglord / Staircase At The University / Istanbul / World Peace Is None Of Your Business / One Of Our Own / The Bullfighter Dies / You'll Be Gone / I'm Not A Man / Yes, I Am Blind / Meat Is Murder / Everyday Is Like Sunday / Smiler With Knife / Kick The Bride Down The Aisle / Kiss Me A Lot / Jack The Ripper / What She Said // I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris / The Queen Is Dead



Most significantly, the song Smiler With Knife made a return to the set; although unfortunately the song was somewhat spoiled by a screaming fan, but it was still VERY special for it to have been sung. Earlier this month, I wrote that Smiler hadn't been sung live since Hull in September, and I also mentioned that Morrissey had quoted to a Chilean interviewer that, "a song like Smiler with knife is so meaningful to me that I cannot even sing".

It is pretty obvious that Smiler With Knife was played in São Paulo on Saturday because of it's close association to the MorrisseysWorld fictional story, Brazil; which not only has the same theme as the song, but also features a character called Paulo, and is of course set in Brazil! Brazil was first published on the MW blog in August 2011, and as soon as World Peace Is None of Your Business was released, BRS members quickly made the connection between Smiler With Knife and the short story. I wrote about this on Day 1035 of FTM; which incidentally is also the day that I mentioned being banned by Broken from republishing the Brazil story.



Jack the Ripper also was played on Saturday night, which could be considered a 'coincidence' following on from me writing about JTR on FTM last week, but as Morrissey sang the song in Chile the previous week, it is only a flimsy coincidence.... unless of course Morrissey changed the lyrics to include the name Michael Maybrick, which would then make it a HUGE coincidence. Unfortunately there is no Youtube footage, so I can't check, but it is highly unlikely!*

And whilst I am on the subject of Jack, the former Isle of Wight coroner, who I am reliably informed is a very senior ranking freemason, has come out to defend Michael Maybrick's good name, telling the local rag that Bruce Robinson's book, They All Love Jack, is, "complete and utter rubbish", adding, "it is such rubbish that I don't think it will do any harm to the reputation of a man who could hardly have been more respectable." The former coroner, John Matthews, then goes on to say, "You hardly come to a town to hide and become so prominent. He was regularly received at Osborne by Queen Victoria and his funeral was the biggest the Isle of Wight had seen. He was mourned by so many."
 Mr Matthews obviously hasn't stopped to think that perhaps Maybrick was SO arrogant, and SO full of his own self importance, that he would have HAD to be a prominent public figure to feed his ego.



Bruce Robinson's book also alleges that Michael Maybrick was a member of six masonic lodges, had a hatred of women, and was homosexual - believed to have been in a relationship with his writing partner, Frederic Weatherley. John Matthews 'defends' Maybrick's sexuality, saying, "if anything, he may have been asexual." Unbelievable!


Anyway, back to Morrissey. Another BIG nod to the BRS was the way in which Morrissey tossed his shirt at the end of the concert. It was a very exuberant toss, involving dabbing and teasing - quite different to the understated toss during Let Me Kiss You at the previous São Paulo concert last Tuesday. The reason the toss was so exuberant, and the reason it is is a nod to the BRS, is because last Thursday The World of Moz blog published a Top 10 Shirt-Toss Chart, which a certain somebody was obviously VERY aware of!



The BRS tumblr site, which I first mentioned on Day 1042 of FTM, has been updated to include photos of both the mysterious MorrisseysWorld painting that I wrote about Wednesday, and the white rose from that I made reference to two days ago as having been seen during the Alma Matters Youtube footage at the first of the São Paulo gigs.



That Day 1042 FTM entry also mentions the Brazil story, and explains how we were first led to the BRS tumblr site by a Solow user called, Vanitas M.Berrymore. I had pondered at the time as to whether the Vanitas character might actually have been Morrissey, but yesterday I received a confession from Orange Mecanique aka Chuck aka Small-boy Jokes aka God only knows who else, that Vanitas was in fact HER! Logic therefore leads me to conclude that Chuck is also the person behind the BRS tumblr, but she categorically denies this, stating that she found the BRS tumblr by googling. I have no way of knowing if she is telling the truth or not, but something still tells me that the tumblr is the work of Moz.



Ahead of Morrissey's forthcoming concert in Paraguay, he has given an interview to ABC.Com.Py. In the interview Morrissey compares Cameron to Thatcher, stating that nothing has changed in British politics since the 80's. Moz also states that Oscar Wilde is still as relevant as ever, and recommends his complete works, along with The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter by Carson McCullers, and I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou.





In the interview Morrissey also states, "books on animal rights will expand your mind. Would you like to be expanded, or are you happy eating contaminated chicken wings? Chickens also want to keep their wings!"
Moz claims that he doesn't listen to any current music, and says, "Ed Sheeran is the perfect example of the death of music."
When asked if he has ever heard the song Morrissey by Leo Garcia, Mozzer replies, "Of course. It is fantastic." (Ed - I must confess that I had never heard of it. It is from 2001, and in the 6 years that the video has been on Youtube, it has had over 500,000 views!)
Of World Peace is None of Your Business, Morrissey says, "I have never felt so proud."

And in other news, Anna Calvi has revealed how Morrissey made her "little cards" when she supported him, and that they are now pen pals. She ought to join the BRS!



All eyez now on Rio.

THE LOVELESS TOP 10 CHART

1. JACK THE RIPPER (LIVE IN SOUTH AMERICA 2015) - MORRISSEY (UP 1): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rxRvxT6Qncg

2.  SMILER WITH KNIFE (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulSzvzJltPI

3. YOU'LL BE GONE (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0AqjfyCYTM

4.THE QUEEN IS DEAD (WITH SHIRT TOSS - LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ez56ssLplgs&feature=youtu.be

5. LET ME KISS YOU (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JbFs8U46ZJU

6. YOU HAVE KILLED ME (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bm9EvzfiS-c

7. OBOE CONCERTO (LIVE IN SOUTH AMERICA 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1Q2qdzaerU

8. ALMA MATTERS (WITH WHITE ROSE) (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHk9IoK3iRs

9. I'M THROWING MY ARMS AROUND PARIS (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7S7lqJufZTw&feature=youtu.be

10. MORRISSEY READS PROUST (LIVE IN LONDON 1988) - MORRISSEY & LUXURIA (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZZRdNjwnr8


The full Top 85 can be found here: TOP 85

* FOOT NOTE - Footage of Jack the Ripper has now appeared on Youtube - there is no reference to Michael Maybrick!

The Loveless Top 84 Chart - Week ending Tues Nov 24th 2015

THE LOVELESS CHART

1. JACK THE RIPPER (LIVE IN SOUTH AMERICA 2015) - MORRISSEY (UP 1): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rxRvxT6Qncg

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2.  SMILER WITH KNIFE (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulSzvzJltPI

3. YOU'LL BE GONE (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0AqjfyCYTM

4. THE QUEEN IS DEAD (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ez56ssLplgs&feature=youtu.be

5. LET ME KISS YOU (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JbFs8U46ZJU

6. YOU HAVE KILLED ME (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bm9EvzfiS-c

7. OBOE CONCERTO (LIVE IN SOUTH AMERICA 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1Q2qdzaerU

8. ALMA MATTERS (WITH WHITE ROSE) (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHk9IoK3iRs

9. I'M THROWING MY ARMS AROUND PARIS (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7S7lqJufZTw&feature=youtu.be

10. MORRISSEY READS PROUST (LIVE IN LONDON 1988) - MORRISSEY & LUXURIA (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZZRdNjwnr8



11. ALSATIAN COUSIN (LIVE IN LONDON 1991) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuVdXIkr5oo

12. MLLE - LUXURIA (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6brDITJmnp0



13. THIS CHARMING MAN (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXuEevOyS6s

14. TROUBLE LOVES ME (LIVE IN SANTA ANA 2014) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmvZvitpZ_U

15. YOU'LL BE GONE - ELVIS PRESLEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gs1OUgjczAw

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16. EVERYDAY IS LIKE SUNDAY (GRIST FOR THE MILL REMIX) (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UcjUWC6Cdc

17. LIFE IS A PIGSTY/HOW SOON IS NOW? (LIVE IN HOLLYWOOD 2007) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTSk7W4LAfA

18. DEAR GOD, PLEASE HELP ME (STRING VERSION) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uP7GsCREwos&feature=youtu.be

19. SPEEDWAY (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYDQBYx5bXM

20. SUEDEHEAD (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zY31KvWy_-E&feature=youtu.be

21. KISS ME A LOT (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJ5qDS1xU3Q

22. THE BULLFIGHTER DIES (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHhzQaTETVc

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23. MEAT IS MURDER (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XaRbGfQjvQs

24. SOCKETS (LIVE IN READING 2015) - SLAVES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gaF4q9m0jo

25. ANARCHY IN THE UK (LIVE IN LONDON 2007) - SEX PISTOLS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kP2ZF7g-3Fs&feature=youtu.be

26. WORLD PEACE IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sn1u3gM4wSU

27. HOW SOON IS NOW? (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=19ZCXT73K0c

28.FIRST OF THE GANG TO DIE (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oyhfK0A4IM

29. WHAT SHE SAID (LIVE IN SÃO PAULO 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5Z2LsUHB58

30. SWEETIE PIE (UNRELEASED VERSION) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKQ3tgyAWC0&feature=youtu.be

31. I LIKE YOU (LIVE IN HOLLYWOOD 2007) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMjbuDhaSyQ&feature=youtu.be

32. THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT - HOPE AUGUSTUS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VU_iAS7pI7E

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33. SEASICK, YET STILL DOCKED (LIVE AT THE BBC 2009) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJA73j6AvKU

34. THIS IS NOT YOUR COUNTRY - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZuSNgyHduY&sns=em

35. T.I.W.Y.G.  - SAVAGES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JkICznLrnew

Savages’ Jehnny Beth

36. GOD SAVE THE QUEEN (LIVE IN SAN FRANCISCO 1978) - SEX PISTOLS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bC4RFY8vtuM

37. ART-hOUNDS (LIVE IN LONDON 2011) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWTibZkqPNU

38. ADORE - SAVAGES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxzd63PW-Ek

Savages:<em> (clockwise from left)</em> Fay Milton, Ayşe Hassan, Gemma Thompson and Jehnny Beth.

39. TWO TRIBES - FRANKIE GOES TO HOLLYWOOD (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2QAMqTgPKI&feature=youtu.be

40. RELAX - FGTH (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wN2tHv8gPm8

41. THE POWER OF LOVE - FGTH (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyoTvgPn0rU

42. I LOVE TO LOVE - TINA CHARLES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seu2xuMQnIA&feature=youtu.be

43. HIT - THE SUGARCUBES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5fAWpv_axs

44. DANCE, LITTLE LADY, DANCE - TINA CHARLES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1hEl4hciSA

45. ALL YOU FASCISTS BOUND TO LOSE - WOODY GUTHRIE (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwcKwGS7OSQ&sns=em



46. COWBOYS AND ANGELS - GEORGE MICHAEL (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTCJIrHiue4

47. HEAL THE PAIN - GEORGE MICHAEL (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ydO5KaeDaI



48. IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME, DON'T LOOK AT ME - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKp-JsXLqmM

49. THE LAST OF THE FAMOUS INTERNATIONAL PLAYBOYS - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bk1wUKoXL20&feature=youtu.be

50. WILL NEVER MARRY - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HaijrcMEoGk

 51. I'M A WANKER - IVOR BIGGUN (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4OITfVktqg&feature=youtu.be

52. TROUBLE LOVES ME (LIVE IN SANTA ANA 2014) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmvZvitpZ_U

53. I WANT A LIP - APRIL STEVENS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJ0Gu8ALKCQ&feature=youtu.be

54. TEACH ME TIGER - APRIL STEVENS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWpA5iY2V1I

55. SHE'S A WOMAN - THE BEATLES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5w1N-D9JwZ0&feature=youtu.be

56. YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE - GERRY & THE PACEMAKERS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OnhidBHw0Eo&feature=youtu.be

57. THE LOOP - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WYEj7nQU4-o&feature=youtu.be&list=PL6MOZ2QZlx6O34pgpTxa4XSbMUMy_DXyy

58. SHUT DOWN - SLAVES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2q7diPPrayg

59. HORSES - WONK UNIT (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSjh0N6l-rg&feature=youtu.be

60. ANDY WARHOL - DAVID BOWIE (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GDv0SHItG-4&feature=youtu.be


61. BABY - JUSTIN BIEBER (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kffacxfA7G4

62. STRIP-TEASE - NICO (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6NwEXF14qo

63. I LOVE TO LOVE - TINA CHARLES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seu2xuMQnIA&feature=youtu.be

64. DANCE LITTLE LADY, DANCE - TINA CHARLES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1hEl4hciSA&feature=youtu.be

65. I AM HERE/SAD PERSON - SAVAGES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HaijrcMEoGk

66. HOME IS WHERE THE HATRED IS - GIL SCOTT HERON (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtzlFO19m3k

67. TOMORROW IS MY TURN - NINA SIMONE (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DFVAoIU8vTM

68. JE T'AIME... MOI NON PLUS - SERGE GAINSBOURG & JANE BIRKIN (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlpDf6XX_j0#t=24

69. SWEETIE PIE - MORRISSEY (FEAT KRISTEEN YOUNG) (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2YZfoZ2FzY

70. LOCK ALL THE DOORS (LIVE ON JOOLS HOLLAND 2015) - NOEL GALLAGHER'S HIGH FLYING BIRDS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YeS8vA3t3mo

71. A LOVER'S CONCERTO - THE TOYS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_muziTEnNWs

72. BABY IT'S YOU - THE SHIRELLES (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVTtIeWi93A

73. 505 - ARCTIC MONKEYS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifZfUVp2chE&feature=youtu.be

74. WE'RE GONNA HAVE A REAL GOOD TIME TOGETHER (LIVE IN NYC 1975) - PATTI SMITH (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnXmcvBiLc0&list=PLGRSBrPhyFmhzLV6DBiO1k8EhLgfNdn1h#t=40

75. CALLING YOUR NAME - MARILYN (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMw_iosf5QI&feature=youtu.be

76. THE HOLY CITY - MAHALIA JACKSON (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsgEkW6eQl8

77. SOME VELVET MORNING - LEE HAZELWOOD & NANCY SINATRA (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sb-SVPJM4L4&feature=youtu.be

78. (THERE'S) ALWAYS SOMETHING THERE TO REMIND ME - SANDIE SHAW (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xx5otxLS3qc&feature=youtu.be (Played by Joe D)

79. BE MY BABY - THE RONETTES (NEW ENTRY) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NnWOBMQhNBQ

80. HE'S SO FINE - THE CHIFFONS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rinz9Avvq6A

81. CANDY - IGGY POP & KATE PIERSON (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4E2Kit699IE

82. SOME CANDY TALKING - THE JESUS AND MARY CHAIN (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIIdLAQ3nvc

83. THE FINAL DERRIERE - SPARKS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8YQw6KLJGf8&feature=youtu.be

84. SCENARIO - DRAMARAMA (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuT9Do5hfGs&feature=youtu.be

85. I AM TWO PEOPLE - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFlc9q6AHX4&feature=youtu.be


Saturday, 21 November 2015

Day 1531 - Run From My Throwing Arms

I have spent much of the past 3/4 days lost down a rabbit hole, reading many, many articles relating to both Jack the Ripper, and Michael 'Stephen Adams' Maybrick. Although I have not yet read Bruce Robinson's book, They All Love Jack, my sixth sense is telling me that Robinson is right, and Michael Maybrick was indeed Jack. Bruce Robinson has the initials BR, so he has to be right! Our lives are jigsaws.



As Maybrick lived a seemingly exemplary life on the Isle of Wight; where amongst many other things, he was the President of my cricket club, I feel as though I should now set off on a quest to fully research Maybrick's life after the killings, and write a book on my findings - I already have the title: Michael 'Jack the Ripper' Maybrick - My Island Life - Nobody Knows Me. As titles go, it's a bit lengthy, but I want it to include both 'Island life', because of it's double meaning, and 'Nobody knows me' because of it's double meaning i.e. as a lyric from the song Jack the Ripper and for the italic use of the word knows.



I am genuinely intrigued by Michael Maybrick and Robinson's theory; especially as the transcript of Maybrick's evidence from his sister-in-law's murder trial paints Michael as a manipulative control freak, but the reason that I can't go off and write the book is because I am still writing FollowingTheMozziah, which I really didn't expect to be doing FOUR YEARS after I first discovered Morrissey was secretly writing on the internet. I already have one book, 'The TRUE History of the UK Number 1 single - Putting the Record Straight' on hold; which until I write it, means that the likes of Are You Sure, March of the Siamese Children, and Please Please Me are still without recognition as rightful Number 1s.... which incidentally is all because in 1977, four middle class men decided to make it so in their book of inaccuracies.


BOOK OF INACCURACIES

And so to the continuation of FTM. Following on from Morrissey's posting of the two New World Order videos on TTY, I thought that perhaps, just perhaps, the users of the Morrissey-Solo website might finally put two and two together and realise that it was the MorrisseysWorld blog where the subject of a New World Order was first mentioned in the land of Moz, but unfortunately that has not happened, and instead the users have either blamed Julia Riley, put it down to Moz being drunk/high, or just accused Morrissey of losing his marbles.

DRUNK? HIGH? DERANGED? .... OR JUST HIMSELF

One person who has finally put two and two together - or more like five hundred and two and five hundred and two - is our old friend Rosy Mires, but her realisation has hardly led her to embrace and rejoice in the fact that Morrissey is Our Mozzer, rather the opposite.

Having seen the TTY post, Rosy tweeted, "Worryingly, I agree the videos do resemble MW at its maddest/lowest. Looney stuff", before then adding, "Have you SEEN the videos? Too many magic mushrooms with his tomato penne?" Rosy, like the 'fans' on So-low, obviously doesn't like the fact that Morrissey's interests and thoughts don't reflect hers. It's an old, but true adage, NEVER meet your heroes.



Rosy was last seen running off into the safe arms of Johnny Marr, to whom she tweeted, "@Johnny_Marr Thank YOU Johnny Marr. Superb record (Adrenalin Baby). Every track." I just hope for the sake of Rosy and all the other Smiths fans, that JM never publicly declares an interest in anything that is either slightly out of the norm, nor politically incorrect.

It should be remembered that Rosy did initially believe that Morrissey was behind MorrisseysWorld, but then managed to convinced herself that it COULDN'T be Moz when the MW blog: joked about a crying Sudanese girl wanting a copy of Years of Refusal, likened Jonathan Ross and Russell Brand to the Moors Murderers, and joked on Twitter about Oprah Winfrey looking like Whitney Houston. When the MorrisseysWorld blog started posing videos about the Illuminati and the NWO, Rosy stated that Morrissey would be "horrified" if he knew that a faker was doing such a thing in his name. Rosy made the oh so common mistake of presuming that she KNEW Morrissey. No one KNOWS another person; not truly knows them.

It is no wonder that pop stars, film stars, footballers, and other heroes in the public eye NEVER show their real selves; they can't, it might smear their lovely career.

THE MORRISSEYSWORLD IMAGE OF ROSS & BRAND AS BRADY & HINDLEY

Morrissey yesterday posted a statement on TTY saying that David Joseph at Universal Music in London has refused Mozzer's request to "re-issue 'I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris' as a loving tribute to the lives lost in the Paris atrocities."
Morrissey Singing 'I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris'
At 8.30pm (6.30pm São Paulo time) last night, a photo of Morrissey having a drink in the Skye Bar  was tweeted by @seanmcg using his instagram account. It was a rather sneaky photo, taken over his shoulder, and obviously without permission. As Mr Sneaky had posted the photo on social media, I decided I would share it, so I cropped it, and then tweeted it. One of my followers, Steph (@stracy1675), saw my tweet, and in turn adapted the photo by adding the quote, "David Joseph can go fuck himself":

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A couple of hours later, Mademoiselle Fifi appeared and tweeted, "Veuve o'clock." A certain someone had noticed the picture!

This morning, I awoke to find that Morrissey had posted Steph's version of the photo on TTY under the heading, Morrissey, tonight in Sao Paulo. A coincidence, naturally! After all, as everyone KNOWS, Morrissey doesn't use ANY form of social media.

It is ridiculous that David Joseph has blocked the release of Paris, and there can be NO reason for it. It wouldn't have cost Polydor Records anything to release a statement announcing that the track was available to download, and would have earned money for the company. Naturally one has to ask,  WHY then has David Joseph blocked Morrissey's request? The answer would appear to be a fairly simple one: David Joseph is a very good friend and colleague of Steve Barnett, the man who Morrissey publicly criticised (saying among other things that Barnett has "less brains than an artificial flower") for the debacle at Harvest. It looks very much as though Joseph has chosen to stand by his chum rather than: A) Show compassion for those who lost their lives in Paris, and B) Make money for the company for which he is employed. I wonder how Universal's shareholders would feel about the latter?


STEVE BARNETT (FAR LEFT) & DAVID JOSEPH (2ND FROM RIGHT) WITH SOME OTHER PEOPLE

The dullards at So-low have, of course, accused Morrissey of wanting to re-issue ITMAAP purely to make money, so I felt obliged to point out to one of them the following:

"Do you honestly, honestly believe that Morrissey wanted I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris re-released for financial gain? Honestly? Or maybe, just maybe, the man who has become numb to all the human atrocities that go on day in, day out all over the world, might ACTUALLY have been genuinely touched by the Paris killings? We all know that Morrissey has a love affair with France, and the song I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris OBVIOUSLY means an awful lot to Moz because he has kept it in his set for a very long time - much to the condemnation of most of the users on here. Jean Cocteau, Jean Marais, Jean Genet, Brigitte Bardot, Alain Delon, Françoise Hardy, Serge Gainsbourg, Sacha Distel, Maxims, La Fabrique.... these are just a few of the MANY, MANY things that Morrissey loves about France, and what was the last concert Morrissey attended? It was Charles Aznavour at the Palais des Sports in Paris in September. Fuck you and your nasty, negative views. I for one am NOT a Moz cultist, I am a Moz fan. You, Skinny, Geezer, Tseng, Brummie Boy, Benny et al have ALL forgotten why you came here in the first place, your love of Morrissey. Why do you come here? Is your life SO dull that the only thing that gives you life is hating the man you once loved? It's mirror time, my friend."

And then, of course, is the song itself, which was written because of.... A LOVE FOR PARIS.




I have again written far too much today, so I will now sign off. I will leave with another song, Alma Matters, sung the other night in São Paulo. A white rose can clearly be shown being waved by one of the audience, but as far as I am aware, it didn't make it to Moz. The tour continues tonight, with the second of the São Paulo shows, and then the tour party head to Rio. There is NEVER a dull moment in the world of Moz. The truth about Jack the Ripper and UK No.1s pale into insignificance - I'm following the Mozziah!

Wednesday, 18 November 2015

Day 1529 - Nobody knows me

Theories, signs, conspiracies, concerts, graveyards, bad sex.... it all seems to be going on at the moment, and if I'm honest, my little rat brain is struggling to cope with it all as I flit from one subject to the next - and I also continue to work full time.... well, three days a week, but today happens to be one of those days, and very little work is being done!

Apart from anything else, I desperately want to find time to read the findings of Bruce 'Withnail & I' Robinson who last month, after 15 years of research, published an 850 page book called, They All Love Jack, in which Bruce names one of the former Presidents of my cricket club, Michael Maybrick, as being Jack the Ripper! From what I have discovered so far, it is a FASCINATING theory, but more about that later - or probably in a completely separate blog, as this isn't really the place for it... although as the story is full of Freemason cover-ups, then perhaps this IS the place for it, especially in light of what  Morrissey has published on True-To-You today....


BRUCE 'WITHNAIL' ROBINSON - AUTHOR OF THEY ALL LOVE JACK

*Takes deep breath*

The MorrisseysWorld blog disappeared quite a while ago now, but today some of it's contents have leapt straight into the real world of Morrissey, with Moz posting two videos on his website, True-To-You, under the title of 'Monarchy is Anarchy'.

The videos show how the British Royal Family are interlinked with the New World Order, Freemasonry and everything else that the MorrisseysWorld blog told us about. Morrissey touched on the subject on TTY before, in April 2013, as documented by me on Day 581 of FTM, but it was disguised and therefore missed by the masses.

One of the two videos posted today on TTY is entitled Royal Babylon by Heathcote Williams. This afternoon I carried out some internet research on Heathcote Williams; who I have to confess, I have never heard of before - well why would I, seeing as he isn't on either X Factor or I'm A Celebrity, Throw Me A Fish! - and I was led to the Royal Babylon website, which at the very top of it's home page has the following quote, from none other than Virginia Woolf:

"Can we go on bowing and curtseying to people who are just like ourselves? We begin to wish that the zoo should be abolished; that the royal animals should be given the run of some wider pasturage - a royal Whipsnade. Will the British Empire survive? Will Buckingham Palace look as solid in 2034 as it does now? Words are dangerous things remember. A republic might be brought into being by a poem" - Virginia Woolf in Time and Tide, 1st December 1934

Could that poem be Royal Babylon?



The Woolf quote has parallels to the Morrissey statement placed on TTY of the other day entitled, All the fun of the Circus. My internet research also led me to a 2012 International Times review of Royal Babylon, and very interestingly it cites Morrissey as a fan of the poem. WHEN and WHERE did Morrissey state that he was a fan? I obviously have missed that! It will be interesting to see what reaction we get from Morrissey's posting of the two videos - I predicted in that blog entry of mine from April 2013, that if Morrissey ever declared that he believed a New World Order existed, the media and his 'fans' on Morrissey-Solo would rejoice in the fact that Morrissey had completely and utterly lost the plot. I'm sure they won't disappoint.


HEATHCOTE WILLIAMS

It was announced yesterday that Morrissey's debut novel, List of the Lost, has been nominated for the Literary Review's Bad Sex in Fiction Award for 2015. It will be the 23rd year of the awards, so LotL could become the 23rd pale descendant of Melvyn Bragg's A Time To Dance, which picked up the award in 1993.

Just before 9pm last night, I tweeted that, "It is only right and proper that Morrissey should be awarded for bad sex - hashtag NeverHadNoOne". Half an hour later, Our Mozzer suddenly appeared on Twitter for the first time since October 26th and tweeted, "Bad sex in fiction award? Who said it was fiction?" And then he was gone again, presumably to inform his merry band of musicians that he would be adding Reader Meet Author to the set list that night.... which incidentally, he did!

Our Mozzer currently has just 244 followers, but he has managed to gain himself a third 'celebrity' follower on top of Boy George and Joe Dallesandro *smirks to self* in the form of pop singer, Marilyn. It would appear that Marilyn (@MisterMarilyn) has been introduced to Our Mozzer being on twitter by Joe D, who yesterday tweeted, "I thought you'd at least send flowers not just call my name-- maybe roses? @MisterMarilyn @BRSChairman". "Roses"! It would appear that Joe D not only knows about M being on twitter, but even knows about the Blue Rose Society!

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"WHO SAID IT WAS FICTION?" - MOZ IN SÃO PAULO (NICE SHIRT) 

I have now run out of time to write about anything else, so there will be no more today on Michael 'Jack the Ripper' Maybrick; who incidentally was not only an alleged mass murderer - who according to Bruce Robinson was protected by the Freemasons to stop him embarrassing the Order, but was also one of the most famous composers of his era, writing as Stephan Adams, and was also the alleged lover of his songwriting partner, Fredric Weatherly. There are books upon books upon books which could be written about Maybrick, and what my brief research has already shown me, is that the hugely respectable Maybrick known on the Isle of Wight, is nothing like the one monster described by Robinson... but Maybrick certainly wouldn't be the first person to have more than one pessoa.

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THE GRAVESTONE OF MICHAEL MAYBRICK, WHICH I VISITED THIS MORNING. INSCRIBED ON HIS STONE IS A QUOTE, "THERE SHALL BE NO MORE DEATH".

I also have no time to write about either Morrissey's concert last night in São Paulo; in which Moz sung Let Me Kiss You, or to mention the wonderful Slaves concert that I attended on Monday night - where the mosh pit was manic, and not a camera phone to be seen.





I will sign off with a photo taken in Ecuador. It is another shot of the Morrissey poster with the blue graffiti on, and a great looking house behind. EVERYTHING crumbles eventually.

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*Goes off singing* And no one knows a thing about my life, I can come and go as I please, and if I want to, I can stay, oh, or if I want to, I can leave.... nobody knows me, nobody knows me, nobody knows me.

*RETURNS*

FOOT NOTE - One thing that I forgot to write about was a photo that BRS member, Rosy 'Clover Dean' tweeted to me today. It is a photo of a painting/paintings of the original MorrisseysWorld blog logo. I know nothing more about this, other than Rosy tells me the photo was taken by someone called Aly Shaw Simmons.

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Tuesday, 17 November 2015

Day 1528 - Always look to tomorrow

Morrissey headlined Chile's Primavera Fauna festival on Saturday, with the highlights for me being Alma Matters, Kiss Me a Lot, Earth is the Loneliest Planet, You'll Be Gone, How Soon is Now?, Staircase at the University, Meat is Murder, Everyday Is Like Sunday, I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris and The Queen is Dead.

I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris was particularly poignant following the mass killings of Friday night, and before singing the song, Morrissey addressed the audience saying, "As you know, as you've heard, the war of religion is upon us, or the religion of war is upon us, and we say 'no thank you. No no no no no no no'."






FULL CONCERT


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Mademoiselle Fifi made a rare appearance in The Loveless just after 8pm (UK time) on Sunday night to post a clip of Morrissey's 'Religion & War' speech, which she accompanied with the tweet, "non non non":



Fifi also tweeted me to say, "stop stalking me", which related to a picture I had tweeted of my daily FTM blog audience stats - which showed 24 hits from Chile - and Fifi also tweeted, "Qui? Moi?" in response to my tweet of last week in which I posted links to, "a couple of cracking Fifi related FTM entries: Day 1211  and Day 12..12". It is always a pleasure to see Mademoiselle Fifi in The Loveless.

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And also on twitter, I continue to harass Joe Dallesandro. To have him so accessible is too good an opportunity to miss, so until he tells me to leave him alone, I will keep probing him - he is Fascinating! I have had various conversations with him in recent days - here are some highlights:

JD: I worked on a music video shoot with David Bowie back in the late 80's.
ME: Did you get on with Bowie, or did you find him 'showie' like Morrissey did?
JD: I met him through Teddy Antolin who was both of our stylist for many years. Bowie was never 'showie' with me. I think people tend to read into stuff more than it really exists.
ME: Was the Never Let Me Down video shoot the only time you met Bowie?
JD: I met him 1 time. Then we saw each other occasionally in life.

JD: Contrary to what Lou Reed wrote in 'Wild Side' I have been known to give things away just to surprise people that follow my work.
ME: That lyric must have haunted you for years. Do you feel Lou was jealous of you?
JD: No. That song was written as a direction from Paul Morrissey to Lou telling him to watch the films and write. I wasn't even part of the Factory when he wrote it, I was in Europe at the time, so I was a bit taken aback when he said some not so nice things about me but that is his opinion - had nothing to do with me.
ME: That makes a lot of sense. When did you first meet Lou?
JD: He was in and out of the Factory when I was there - after the VU broke up, trying to get Andy or Paul interested in him again. I don't recall saying more than 'hello' once or twice to him. If I never heard it (Walk on the Wild Side) again, I would not miss that lyric.
ME: Understandable, although actually, it is a lyric that undoubtedly introduces people to you, who subsequently find your films.
JD: People knew about my films before the song. But it was cooler for Holly and Candy. They liked it a lot.
ME: That's because they didn't have the career you went on to have. You should embrace the song. The lyric reflects a character.
JD: Lou never said it was about the characters, he always said it was who we were. Holly and Candy spent time with Lou. I did not.
ME: The romance of the lyricist. I still think there are positives that you can take from being in the song.
JD: Are you trying to convince me or yourself?

After 40+ years of hurt, I don't think Walk on the Wild Side is ever going to make Joe's All time Top 3! Joe seems to tweet at all times of day and night. When I commented that he doesn't sleep much, he replied, "Santa Ana's. Trees blowing everywhere. I have to clean it all up. Doesn't matter what time."

Joe has also been tweeting about the times he met the jazz musician Chet Baker. I had never listened to Chet before; he's just never been on my radar, but thanks to Joe's mentioning of him, I spent most of Monday afternoon watching and listening to Chet on Youtube. WHAT a trumpeter. He was just incredible. My thanks to Little Joe.



Astra has left a couple of comments on the last FTM entry as a follow up to comments left by others. Here is her latest comment, which includes further background to her original story:

"Interesting interpretations. I'm very loathe to leave this comment at all, but I'll go against my better judgement on this single occasion. Nothing exists except in the incarnation of each individual's interpretation. Which is why Art does not require elaboration. Ever.

However in light of the darkened spiral that some of you have gone on, may I offer that that was never the point, nor the intention. There is a backstory to the story that made it very apropos this week, but that backstory will keep its secrets. The story is unfortunately true, and was repackaged as part parable, and as metaphor and direct current social commentary following this week's events. That was all.

A pleasant evening to everyone, I think this chapter can be closed.

And now BRASIL, all eyes on you

Always look to tomorrow. There's no time for anything else.

Goodnight"

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SÃO PAULO -   PHOTO COURTESY OF @JAYJ_CASA

And as a postscript to Astra's story, I read with great interest today that one of the Parisian suicide bombers of last Friday, Ibrahim Abdeslam, blew himself up whilst killing no one else, which isn't exactly the idea behind being a suicide bomber! Ibrahim's mother is quoted as saying that she is SURE that he would never have planned to kill others, and most mothers know their children. Could it be that Ibrahim killed himself because he couldn't face killing others, and knew that THEY would make him? Had he got in too deep? Was Ibrahim's situation any different to any other 'gang member' who had got in too deep?

And unlike Ibrahim, what of those who did kill others? Some of them are so young that they cannot possibly fully understand what they are doing. The lyrics of Last of the Famous International Playboys have been playing in my mind: "I never wanted to kill, I am not naturally evil, such things I do just to make myself more attractive to you". Attractive to the gang leaders. Attractive to Allah.

Perhaps some of the gang members aren't trying to impress anyone. Perhaps they have simply had enough . It is very easy for us all to simply denounce ISIS, but perhaps the question we should be asking is 'why are these animals angry?' If you poke an animal with a stick, you shouldn't be surprised when it bites you.

And finally....

THE LOVELESS CHART

1. YOU'LL BE GONE (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBVtRemp5Lg

2. JACK THE RIPPER (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vZ0aOxxoU8

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3. MEAT IS MURDER/WILL NEVER MARRY (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H11hq8pfv9k

4. OBOE CONCERTO (LIVE IN ECUADOR 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osI1pwMea4U

5. KISS ME A LOT (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAvPwpIxcsM

6. DEATH OF A DISCO DANCER (ORIGINAL VERSION) - THE SMITHS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvhe2QCYqvM

7. I'M NOT A MAN (NEW FAN VIDEO) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpPsQwVnnTc

8. YOU KNOW I COULDN'T LAST - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY... REMARKABLY!) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C5TVdOwE4Ls

9. THE QUEEN IS DEAD (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=apcagvZ_zIY

10. I'M THROWING MY ARMS AROUND PARIS (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY):https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1XhJA_liKFo

11. SUEDEHEAD/ALMA MATTERS/THIS CHARMING MAN (LIVE IN CHILE 2015)  - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EotqJVZhoy4

12. EVERYDAY IS LIKE SUNDAY (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3sI3UnVLU8

13. FIRST OF THE GANG TO DIE (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSkTUytIX7o

14. THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT - THE SMITHS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n-cD4oLk_D0 (Played by Joe Dallesandro)



15. I'VE CHANGED MY PLEA TO GUILTY (LIVE ON JONATHAN ROSS 1990) - MORRISSEY (UP ?): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylwJJfCUFJk

16. FIND ME A BOY - FRANÇOISE HARDY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GC50Lh-pxb0&feature=youtu.be




17. YOU HAVE KILLED ME (LIVE ON CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N45yXF7HbQ

18. HEART - RITA PAVONE (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QXjkM7gOVY

19. HOW SOON IS NOW? (LIVE IN CHILE 2015) - MORRISSEY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VkCIgbAUw8Q

20. TROUBLE LOVES ME (LIVE IN UTRECHT 2014) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyjqbf395dY

21. DEAR GOD, PLEASE HELP ME (ORCHESTRA RECORDING) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmJDTwcXWAw

22. (I NEVER PROMISED YOU A) ROSE GARDEN (LIVE IN NASHVILLE 2015) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERpWw-BLUfI&feature=youtu.be

23. PALE BLUE EYES - VELVET UNDERGROUND (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KisHhIRihMY

24. BLACK CLOUD (LIVE IN CHILE 2012) - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wcb2s5B_Apk&feature=youtu.be

25. I'M OK BY MYSELF - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEk_w6abtxw&feature=youtu.be

26. DEATH - KLAUS NOMI (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwsR71YZPac

27. NEVER HAD NO ONE EVER - THE SMITHS (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciCv8-HD-5Q

28. SOMETHING IS SQUEEZING MY SKULL - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8npJ3hI7As&feature=youtu.be

29. AT LAST I AM BORN - MORRISSEY (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZb24UDlpF8

30. NEVER LET ME DOWN - DAVID BOWIE (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4ZZMbpUFMY&feature=youtu.be



31. WORK IS A FOUR LETTER WORD - THE SMITHS (RE-ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETJ-kOJrRow

32. GIVE PEACE A CHANCE - JOHN LENNON & THE PLASTIC ONO BAND (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0yU0JuE1jTk&feature=youtu.be

33. ST.JAMES INFIRMARY - ALLEN TOUSSAINT (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LrzpinslpzU&feature=youtu.be

34. WILD BOYS - DURAN DURAN (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M43wsiNBwmo

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35. CHET BAKER IN CONCERT 1975 - CHET BAKER (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGs-joy63kM



36. REVENGE OF THE FLOWERS - MALCOLM MCLAREN & FRANÇOISE HARDY (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EQienIwqD5Y



37. JAZZ IS PARIS - MALCOLM MCLAREN (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bifxw9C9RJk&feature=youtu.be

38. PARIS PARIS - MALCOLM MCLAREN & CATHERINE DENEUVE (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-E7s9vZ-_o



39. HOME IS WHERE THE HATRED IS - GIL SCOTT HERON (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtzlFO19m3k&feature=youtu.be

40. CHINA MY CHINA - ENO (NEW ENTRY): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76qPMv1tCfI

Sunday, 15 November 2015

Day 1526 - Longer than my never by Astra

PROLOGUE
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Once upon a time, maybe it was only yesterday, maybe it was before, I won’t tell you the details, there was a beautiful boy.

He was very tall, very slender, very strong. And very handsome. I know his face. I will always remember his face, because his face is emblazoned across my mind. His story - was never tattooed above anybody’s heart. But perhaps it will be now.

This beautiful boy lived alone with his father, in a small village, in a country you don’t know. A place in the countryside, a place with hard work, and a hard life. There were vineyards. There was a marble quarry. And there was a gold mine. There may have even been two. This is what work there was. Work in the fields, work in the quarry, or work in the mines. Small village. Back-breakingly hard work. A life with few mercies, and with little forgiveness.

There were no girls. No girls to speak of, in any case. And certainly no boys. There was work. And then there was home. At home there was more work, and at home there was father. Mother died. His mother died when he was young.

Backgammon. Cards. Chess. The radio.

Nights with no lights. Summertime nights spent outside. Only stars, and crickets. And wolves howling in the hills. Wild dogs and wolves, and sometimes, the stench of animal excrement from the pig farm, slicing through the night air and heaving in everyone’s nostrils, with the sharpness of knives. The smell of suffocating excrement tonight, only as silent precursor to the strangulating promise of incipient death.

A cigarette end burns in the darkness, but around it, pitch black. The night hides everything.

Creaking cellar doors. A bat in the cubbyhole. Wine barrels made of oak. Each one, made by hand.

Have you ever had freshly pressed, unfermented, unpasteurized grape juice? Freshly separated from the pomace? No. I didn’t think you had. Vinum mustum. It’s absolutely exquisite.

A sweetest kind of sweetness. A sweetness without end, a fizz without beginning, a taste without time. The taste of oxygen. The taste of the sweetest naked fruit. Its vital essence, and nothing more. The ancient Greeks used to say that this freshly pressed juice is not only the secret to longevity, but in fact the very secret to life itself. It only exists for a single week or so each year. Then once the juice starts to ferment, its singular regenerative properties are completely gone. So it is also the taste of - life. And everything has a taste, all its own.

Do you know my taste? Do you know the taste of my bite? My bite tastes like sour cherries. Like sweet, tart, sweet tart, but very sweet, tart, sweet sour cherries. You’ll have to take my word for it, on this one. Just trust me.

Trust me now, trust me never.


GRAPES
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When large oak barrels are made by hand, for a wine cellar, for the wine to ferment in, a tap, a spigot, any kind of faucet by which to extract the wine, would be a weak spot in the barrel. A weak spot where any pressure could be enough to make it burst.

Instead, a large barrel is constructed, and shaped, and built by hand. The wood is tenderized – this isn’t what it’s called - but it may as well be. Tenderized, and then cajoled into shape. Cajoled, but with a very knowing, very firm, and very experienced hand.

Because nothing in life can come by force. Or by spurious guile. Nothing worth having, in any case.

And certainly nothing worth wanting.


NO WINE FOR YOU. DON’T CRY FOR ME
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A solid barrel is constructed by hand, and there is nowhere for the wine to come out. Instead, a small hole is left at the top. Ferment me this way. Ferment me that way. Whatever you do, don’t ferment me wrong. Don’t ferment me too long.

If you ferment it wrong, it turns to syrup. Too long? Too short? Not enough? A thick, thick, THICK, syrupy syrup. No wine for you. Don’t cry for me.

If fermented too long, it must be poured into demijohns, and shaken, shaken, shaken. To separate once more, and to undo what’s been done. A moment too long, a moment too soon – and it was all for nothing. It’s now all wrong. It’s now all gone.

Can you ever undo, what’s already been done? Can you ever undo, what’s already been undone?


MORNING
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Father made lunch for his beautiful son one morning. This morning. That morning. Any morning. Every morning. The summer air wasn’t hot yet, the morning inside the house still cool, with the promise of the day still yet to unfurl. Just like every other morning. Sandwiches. Sandwiches wrapped in white paper table napkins. Everything in the kitchen, white.

Everything that is white is clean, new, pure.

Untouched. Untainted. Unknowing.

The beautiful boy had a weathered, leather bag. A briefcase, in fact. There is a certain solemnity in a briefcase. And there is dignity to be found, in carrying this briefcase.

You scoff? Don’t scoff. Never scoff at a life that you don’t know. Never scoff at a life that you haven’t lived.

The sandwiches, every morning, lovingly made by a father who loved no one else in life – and who had no one else left to love, then went into the weathered, leathered, satchel, on this beautiful, innocent, Adonis-boy’s shoulder. He was goodness incarnate, with a heart as pure as doves’ wings.

This morning, the beautiful brown haired boy with his piercing blue eyes, didn’t come back into the kitchen. Where is he? Where is he? I’ve looked everywhere. Now he’ll really be late!

Is he in the vegetable garden? Has he gone to the grapes, I know there was a problem with the vines. They’re coming in the middle of the night now, this never used to happen in the old days! This never used to happen before! They come in the middle of the night now, and they steal the vines! Right out from the ground. They dig them up, vines that were planted so long ago. So long ago that people say they were planted here by the Romans, when they came and conquered. Veni! Vidi! Vici!

They’re thick, and gnarled, and maybe thousands of years old. You can see the root, because from the root is from where the new vines must be spliced. And you can trace the epochs that this vine has lived with your fingers, and read it, just like you can read the rings of a thousand year old tree.

It’s getting hotter now. It’s not early morning anymore. The sandwiches know it. They’re still sitting on the table. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Now starting to limp. And soon to be limping.

Slowly, slowly, slowly, a slight worry turns into something more. A hollow pit in the bottom of the father’s stomach starts to churn. A hollow pit, but a hollow pit now with a density, and with a weight, and with a mass.

Outside, in the sunshine, in the garden all is quiet. All is well. Bright sun. Birds sweetly chirruping.

The somewhat far away, creaking chain of a neighbor’s well suddenly goes SNAP!!! And the metal bucket makes an almighty racket as it clangs and bangs against the sides of the walls, until it violently reaches the very bottom of its length, and the metal chain makes it snap up again. Clanging against the side of the well two last times, for good and final measure.

Midmorning silence. Riotously broken. But only for a moment. Now it’s all quiet again. And the sun still shines.

Bucket back at the bottom of the well. That’s what happens. And that’s where you end up, if you let go too soon. Or if you haven’t secured everything that needs to be secured. Someone just let go of the bucket too soon. That was all it was.


END
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Into the barn now. It’s more of a storage barn, in fact. Everything to be kept safe and dry. But not for the animals. Well, sometimes for the animals. If there are any strays. In that case, there is always a warm bed for them here, for the winter.

It’s dark and cool in the barn. Shadowy. Morning hasn’t come here yet, because it never does. Not entirely. The sunlight doesn’t fully reach. Safe from the sun, safe from everything. Here, inside, it always takes a moment for the eyes to adjust.

Suddenly, a heart stops. The father is frozen. His insides collide. There is an indescribable collision, of atoms, of neurons, of electrons, of everything a human being is made of. Is this what it was like, when the galaxies collided?

A big bang? The BIG Bang? Except this one happens inside of a human being. The mind stops, time stops, the world stops. But the mind is racing, time is racing, nothing stops.

Everything happening. And everything is not happening at all. All at once, and all at the same time. And the father doesn’t control any of it. It happens inside of him, and yet, he is oblivious.

A statue.

But what felt like an eternity was only a moment ago, because with a heart made of stone that will never beat again the same as it ever did before, as quick as a panther, the father leaps.

From a beam, the beautiful, beautiful boy, everybody’s son, and now nobody’s, - NO…no, not yours! The beautiful boy who was nothing but good, is hanging from his neck.

His body limp, dangling, but not still. An almost imperceptible slight back and forth to the rope. But it’s too late now. And it will always be too late, now.

In his death, he is even more beautiful than he was in life. The outside, merely a reflection in this case, of the inside. Because through his death, he showed his true colors. Through the pain he felt in his heart, through the sacrifice he made in giving up his own life, through the unspeakable agony he knew he would be causing to his own loving, aging father – who has no one else left at all now – the most beautiful boy on earth, showed his true colors.

There was a note. In his jacket pocket. They didn’t find it until later. Carefully folded into three. They were the last words that he would ever write. And these were the last thoughts that he ever had.

“My Father”, it began. “Please forgive me. I love you so much. But they came, and I could not walk away. I tried, but there were too many of them. They gave me a deadline. It was today. And I couldn’t do it. I could not do what they asked.

They told me I had to kill someone. And if I did not do as they said, they would have killed me. There would have been no discussion, no chance, there is no escape.

You know more than anyone else on this earth, that I could never kill someone.

If someone has to die, it will never be by my hand. And so now, instead of killing someone else, the only choice that has been left to me, is for me to kill myself.

Because if I don't kill someone else, they still kill me.

“I’m so sorry, my father. I love you. I will love you always. And now, I will love you into the forever after.”


EPILOGUE
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You may think this is just a story to be forgotten, at the bottom of a blog. But you’re wrong.

And you may think that you know the color of my heart. But you don’t. And you won’t. And you never will. And if you still think that you do, then you’d still be wrong.

Do you know the color of my heart?
Do you know the color of my art?
Do you know the taste of my sighs? You never will.
Never is a very long time.
And eclipsed in the longer, only by always, by tomorrow, and by time.

In other words – always, tomorrow, and time – will all last longer than my never.

A spasm like no other, my heart was clutched, my heart was wrenched. There is no time now left - the end.

These are the infinites that belong to no one, and to nothing.

And alongside them, I’ll lay down my sleepy head and heart tonight.

With an ever loving lullaby, lying in quiet wait in my heart. For everyone who needed one, when there was one not there

ASTRA


Posted by Astraea to Day 1523 - You'll Be Back at 15 November 2015 at 06:46

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